My experience about the end-of-life for our loved ones started when I was 11. In that time I was study in primary school. My Grandmother was death with lots of diseases which are diabetes, paralysis and kidney disease. I could say that I have no good relationship with my grandmother because she always complain me and compare me with my brother. After I knew that she was death, all of my memorises during I spend time with her come into my head. I was thinking round and round why that time I didn’t do like this with her or why I didn’t speak gently to her.
In 2008 while I studied in university, I received a phone call from my mom that my grandfather got cancer. All of my family and my relatives knew this except my grandfather. We believe that if he knew about his health, it might be worst. Thus, we try to keep it in secret. This situation remind me to think about the past. However, I decide to make it change and better. Every time I met my grandfather I always express love to him by kiss him, hug him and hold his hand when we go outside. With my action, my mom told me that my grandfather never got this experience form my mom and her brothers and sisters. It was only me who express this action to him. At first time when I did it, I feel shy but I believe that in the future I will feel sorry or guilty if I not do it in this time.
Tell the truth, from my directly experience, if you could reimagine the end-of-life for ourselves and our lovers, just make it and just do it. Express all of your emotion (I mean in positive way), enjoy with them, spend time with them as you can. You will never know today might be the last day that you can spend time with them. Do it and make it before it too late.